I Rise...

I've been through alot this past year. My faith, health, wealth and happiness has been tested on numerous occasions, from the death of my best friend to me catching a rare form of strep throat that kills 1 in 3 people, to being in the hospital after totalling my car in an accident with an uninsured driver (not to mention the court and lawyer cost associated with that).  But one thing that is certain is-  God never left my side. I believe everything happens for a reason and there are no coincidences, and though Im not sure why certain things have happened to me, I know they are for a purpose. Maybe I was comatose for a week  so doctors could learn the sympotoms of this rare virus and how to treat it. God knew I was strong and could handle the pain and 110+ degree fever so hot my skin was peeling. Maybe I had this car accident to prevent the driver from speeding through another light and this time killing somebody. Or maybe my car was about to go out on me and God just made this happen so I would get money for a new car. Maybe I shouldn't have dread going to court becuase I shouldn't have been at work that day- anything can happen, but it wont happen to me.

In one of my previous blogs, I talked about finding myself at the edge of a cliff debating if I should jump and pray I develop wings on the way down, or run back to firm, but uncertain grounds. After all I have been through in 2010, I'm thankful it didn't follow me in to 2011. I think God is my wings and the Holy Spirit is the air beneath them so I can rise. As weird as it sounds, all this could have been worse. I could be dead, without a car, in debt....but Im not. Now, everytime I think I just can't take it anymore, and my life isn't worth living and its just too much to bare, I feel a little breeze, and that reminds me that God is always there and with God by my side, no matter what may bring me down, I will always rise.

Oneness Awakening Course May 13-15th

I am holding off posting my next blog till next week so I can tell you all about this non-denominational awakening course that is so amazing. I first became a Blessing Giver just two months ago and it is already life transforming. I can now get to deeper meditative states quicker and my mind is not racing with random thoughts! It feels so good to be at peace externally AND internally. I think the highlight for me was that I became a channel for Divine energy to flow through me so I may give the blessing that I received to others. Because this energy is now constantly flowing through me, I can easily connect with my Higher Self for guidance. I am not running the course so I am not trying to "sell" anyone on it, but I honestly wished I knew about this years ago and I just feel the need to tell everyone at how amazing my life is now. After the course, I began to see Angels- literally! They flew into the room during one of the meditation processes!


This course is literally for everyone, no matter what you believe or don't believe. It lets you connect and be One with your Divine that you believe in or you Higher Self or inner-child. 
I am completely at peace and so happy, I just wanted to share this info because if I hadn't found out about the February course by mistake, I would have missed this huge blessing. Oh and Grailville itself (where the course is held) is AMAZING. 

Here is the website for anyone wanting more info and to register:

onenessawakeningloveland.eventbrite.com/


Here is the flyer for it as well:
This is a non-denominational PHENOMENAL course! This blessing is said to be the same blessing or deeksha (Sanskrit name) that was given by both Yeshua and Mary Magdalene when they were here 2000 years ago. This blessing helps to prepare our brain, nervous system and chakras (endocrine glands) for the high vibrational frequencies which are flooding the planet as we all make the 2012 Shift in Consciousness spoken of by our ancestors. 

Oneness is a state of consciousness that is related to the way our brain functions. Oneness is neurobiological. The Oneness Blessing or Energy Transfer quiets down two overactive brain centres. When overactive, the Orientation Association Area in our parietal lobes keeps us in separation consciousness where we don't feel connected to nature, each other, or to the Divine. When overactive, our brain stem keeps us in the fight or flight reaction and the struggle for survival. The Oneness Blessing quiets down both these overactive brain centres. 

The Oneness Blessing also activates our frontal cortex bringing us spontaneous states of love and joy. 

The new Oneness Awakening Course, taught over two or three days, is designed simply to help a person move beyond the limitations and structures of the mind. When we are identified with the mind-- when we filter our experience through our past conditioning-- we are in fact not living, but merely existing, merely surviving. When we live within the structures of the mind, we are not actually alive at all. The purpose of life is simply to live-- to experience reality as it is-- that natural state where the senses are alive, the heart is open, in direct contact with the Oneness in everything. 

* 6:30 PM - 9:30 PM Friday (already initiated Blessing Givers only) 
(6:00-6:30 PM Registration) 

* 9:00 AM - 7:00 PM Saturday 

(8:30-9:00 AM Registration) 
(1:00-2:00 PM Break for lunch) 
(3:30-6:30 PM Blessing Giver Initiation) 

* 8:30 AM – 7:30 PM Sunday 

(9:00 AM-1:00 PM Mukti-Deeksha) 
(1:00-2:00 PM Break for lunch) 
(2:00-7:00 PM 64 Deeksha) 

Join us on an inward journey that starts from where you are and moves you towards a state of Oneness, a state where there is no resistance, no conflict, no suffering - a state of joy and peace. 

Spend an entire weekend immersed in the 

peaceful, joyous energies of the Oneness Blessing 


In this amazing weekend you will: 

* Discover and experience living in the Awakened State of Oneness with love, joy, freedom from the mind, and release from all sense of separation. 

* Release deep seated emotional charges & heal relationships 

* Learn practices that are a powerful catalyst for stress relief, healing & growth: including yoga, meditation, breathing techniques, dance, and oneness blessings. 

* Access and experience the "Doors to Oneness" -- 
very powerful states of Consciousness, including freedom from suffering, faith, joy, rapture, calm, bliss and awareness. 

* Learn the formula for success & happiness in inner and outer life. 

* Permanently connect to your Higher Self, your own Truth & your own Divine. (Yes, Really!) 

* Participate in the awesome Mukti-Deeksha Process, which is intended to bring you into an irreversible state of Awakening! 

* Complete the 64 Deeksha Process, which includes giving and receiving 64 hands on Oneness Blessings in a very specific way to bring you into God Realization and the highest states of humanity! 

* Become a Oneness Facilitator & be empowered to 
give the gift of the Oneness Blessing to others. 

To register or get more info go to: onenessawakeningloveland.eventbrite.com/ 


May the grace of the Divine continue to lead and guide you on your path to love, peace and awareness.


Namaste~

Nothing is Something

Great Sages and See'rs have said that when it comes to spirituality, enter whole-heartedly and with a clear mind. Many people approach things and expect a certain outcome or expect things to be a certain way, and are left disappointed when it doesn't meet their expectations. In reality, it was that expectation that took away from the happening. When you set an expectation, you form an attachment to what that should be; and being attached to things gives them unrealistic attributes. Buddha said:

 "Attachment arises from wrong conceptions, so know them as attachment's root. Avoid conceptualizations and attachment will not arise." 

So when you approach something with no illusions, you go in with nothing and

POOF!

something is there....


Buddha taught that this craving grows from ignorance of the self. Because we see ourselves as something separate from everything else, we go through life with false conceptions of how things should be. What I have learned is we are all One. I am no different from the homeless person on the street to the chicken in the barn. One of my favorite quotes says "If God wanted to hide, God would hide in people because it is the last place we would look." When we can give money to a beggar the same we would to our brother, we have learned Oneness. When we no longer see race, religion, sexual identity or education level, we have learned Oneness. Krishna said:

 "He alone sees truly who sees the Lord the same in every creature...seeing the same Lord everywhere, he does not harm himself or others." 

John the Baptist expected the Christ to be vengeful, angry- brining the fire! He told people to repent and get ready, and he was stunned to hear that Jesus was healing the sick and raising the dead. Matthew 11:4-6 says:

 "⁴And Jesus answered them, "Go and tell John what you hear and see: ⁵ the blind receive their sight and the lame walk, lepers are cleansed and the deaf hear, and the dead are raised up, and the poor have good news preached to them. ⁶And blessed is the one who is not offended by me."

 John thought Jesus was off his rocker for this!  He thought Jesus was on the wrong agenda, but Jesus understood that people have expectations and they set themselves up for disappointment when they have their mind set on how people should be. Krishna even said in the Bhagavad Gita that you should "abandon all attachment to the results of actions."


When I was praying last night, I asked what was needed of me to move forward with all these goals and plans I had set up. Normally when I pray, the answer comes in the form of a whisper in my ear or even a spiritual being showing up to talk to me; but this time I got nothing. As I knelt there with my head bowed in reverence for 35 minutes, I didn't hear any reply. In that moment I realized that "nothing" was my answer. If I had started my prayer expecting a certain reply, I would have missed the subtleness of it all. Lao Tzu said to drop our expectations, discard our preconceived ideas, and abandon any method of knowing that might limit our horizons. When expectations are drooped, the mind expands, and reality expands along with the mind. This is what has allowed me to witness and experience miracles and blessings in my life.


I urge everyone for the rest of this year and next, to not set any expectations for how paved your road to spirituality should be. 2012 will bring many changes and none at all like people are predicting. But you don't want to get caught up in the hoopla of it all, and miss the true moments of it. When you go in with nothing, you will get something. 


May your mind be still, your heart be full and your life be abundant...


Namaste~

Anything is Possible: How a Mustard Seed Can Bring You to Enlightenment (the end lol)

I've decided not to write parts two and three because I think my focus should not be on attaining enlightenment, but attaining Christ; and if doing so brings me to enlightenment, then that  IS Christ :-)

 Many people get so caught up in the destination that they lose the lesson in the journey, and I don't want to add to the speed of travel for anyone and then the journey becomes a blur. My Rabonni once told me that a call was put out to light beings in the universe to come to Gaia and assist in her re-birth and the awakening of Her children. We voluntarily responded to this call to help aid Earth with its ascension. We knew that we would come to earth with a veil over our eyes, but the veil would lift when the time was right- which is now.  But we took this life too seriously and forgot our purpose here is to not just to find your path and fulfill your mission, but to experience being third dimensional. We are all spiritual beings having a human existence, and we must not forgot that. There in lies the key to awakening the Self and others.

So as I continue my journey, I am comforted by knowing that there was a fail safe plan in place to make sure we awaken and then use our gifts to awaken others; and that those that trust the process will get back everything they put in to it.

May you never forget to be present in it all, and I wish you to enjoy fully living life as your divinity has graced and lead you :-)

Namaste~

"Anyone who willining enters the pain of a stranger is truly a remarkable person." 

Henri J. Nouwen

 

Anything is Possible: How a Mustard Seed Can Bring You to Enlightenment Pt. 1 of 3

In my last blog, I touched on the difference between believing something and knowing something. The word enlightenment seems to be used too carelessly, and tossed around too frequently these days. I was inspired to write this blog to explain what the definition of enlightenment means to me; as well as give guidance to people on this path. For the record, I am not enlightened but I am on the path to enlightenment myself lol. 


And before I get started, I must post my advisory label:

I encourage people to keep this in the back of their minds as they navigate the road to enlightenment. You will encounter many false prophets, true prophets, and people with good intentions- but are misguided, mislead or misinterpreting. One of the biggest challenges on the road to enlightenment is not inputting your personal beliefs and stating them as facts. To truly be enlightened, one must have no judgments, ignorance, or prejudice. This is near impossible as our ego tries to take over; and the closer we get to enlightenment, the more our knowing becomes a personal belief. 

To be enlightened is to spiritually know and understand free of ignorance, false beliefs or prejudice. People who are enlightened can honor each person as they walk their own path, and not infringe their personal beliefs on to them, but accept what ever form that carries truth for them. To be enlightened is when you can be simultaneously outside yourself, while still connected to your inner Spirit- the observer and the observed are One, connected to every living organism. 

My advisor gave me a great story on the difference between being enlightened and being at a higher state of consciousness, but still awakening. It actually infuses the story of the blind men touching an elephant, and her own quirky twist lol. 

Pretend you are at the foot of a mountain and your friend calls and tells you that there is a flying elephant on the other side of the mountain where she is. From where you are, there is simply no way that you can know whether or not your friend is actually looking at a flying elephant. They might describe it in great detail or even say they are trying to tame it so they can fly over to you, so you can see it for yourself; but the best you can ever do is to believe that they are looking at a flying elephant, you will never know.
All of a sudden a flying elephant comes through the clouds and lands right beside you. Now YOU are looking at a flying elephant! You still don’t know if your friend was actually looking at a flying elephant; but at least now you can start asking specific questions and looking for specific responses from her. You might be able to ascertain that she is indeed looking at a flying elephant very similar to yours, or else you might conclude that her flying elephant is very different from yours; while accepting that she is indeed looking at a flying elephant. Whatever the case, you still won’t really know whether or not she is looking at a flying elephant.

The purpose of this story was to say that you can’t ever know for sure whether someone else is enlightened. Even more importantly, it does not matter if they are or if they are or not. What does matter is that YOU will know whether or not you are looking at a flying elephant aka whether or not you are enlightened.  Rumi, a 13th Century Persian poet and teacher of Sufism, said “The sensual eye is just like the palm of the hand. The palm has not the means of covering the whole of the beast.” There is MUCH to learn before one can say they are enlightened, and as long as they are still learning, they are BECOMING enlightened. This is not a bad thing! They can be at a higher level of consciousness, or farther along on the path to awakening, but they haven't reached it yet. Actually, Buddhist believe that if you say you are enlightened, you are not, because being enlightened means that you know you will never reach enlightenment. Kind of like how in Shamanism they say if you call yourself a Shaman, you are not a Shaman.

This brings me to revisit my "advisory label". It is more than just telling you to not believe everything you hear, it is TELLING you that enlightenment has to agree with your own reasoning aka YOUR HIGHER SELF. People who are enlightened don't need to seek knowledge from books, websites- even other people. That knowledge is CHANNELED to them via their Higher Self. Ask an enlightened person an "unanswered" question. If they give you a response and don't say their source was from their Higher Self,  then they are not enlightened. This is why enlightenment is so hard to obtain, because not everyone can reach this level. But it should not matter whether you are enlightened or not; that is a useless title for a long destination. The only thing that matters is that you awaken and continue to awaken. That you learn and continue to seek knowledge. 

There are many paths that lead to enlightenment. Some people may be able to read something and apply what they know. Some people may have to take multiple spiritual approaches and practices to develop the understanding. The most important thing that matters and that is imperative to know, is that no one can TEACH you enlightenment- it has to be EXPERIENCED and LIVED for yourself. All of my teachers and coaches and advisors can only get me so far. They can give me the understanding on how things work, they can teach me the tools needed to experience things- they can even lead me in the direction all short of holding my hand and doing it for me. But I will never be enlightened if I can't APPLY everything that has been given. Applying it has its benefits, because once you reach enlightenment, when you have unity between your soul and the Divinity within, then the Source or Great Creator Spirit may even work through you as a benefit to others.  

Enlightenment can be obtained, and it all starts with faith and knowing. In my next blog, I will discuss the different levels of enlightenment, as well as the importance of faith. I will then wrap it up in a 3rd blog with seeing the big picture and how to live your own life, true to yourself.

The other side of the Rainbow...

This blog entry came to me in the middle of the night, as most of my good writing does lol. My brain is like an unborn baby- it does not care if it is 3am and it should be sleeping now, it is on it's own schedule lol. I actually thought about it after sending a reply to Natalie who commented on one of my blogs. I wished her a wonderful journey in finding her own personal pot of gold at the end of the rainbow; it was after reading her wonderfully written blog on Magenta. Yep, in the middle of the night, I was thinking for rainbows with magenta rays lol.

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How many times have we found ourselves on the edge of a cliff?  And I dont mean a literal one, but a metaphorical one....in our mind.  Where we are faced with the deciscion to either jump and pray we develop our wings on the way down, or we can go back to where we came from... the same place that drove us to the cliff in the first place. I often find myself at this cliff. Different things bring people to this cliff. It can be a person who you just cant let go of, even though you know they are no good for you, it can be a job thats leading you nowhere but you love the comfort and security of having a schedule; knowing your life is planned out from 9am-5pm. It can even be a bad habit.  An OLD bad habit of mine would bring me comfort when I did it- to actually see my pain, even though it was destructive to my health. And breaking that bad habit would mean having to find other ways to cope with my depression...which seems so insignificant compared to the cliff I am on the edge of now- coming to terms with my own Divinity.

What a smack of reality the awakening process is! The road to enlightenment seems to find pleasure in denying its travelers some water to swallow this HUGE pill with. I know life is a conscious choice. We choose our reality. One of my teachers for my path to enlightenment wrote a blog on the spiritual meanings of the movie "The Matrix". I am totally at the point where Neo is being presented with the red and blue pill to choose.

I want to jump...embrace my Divinity, all of my past lives, and my inevitable powerful future existence. But there is still a part of me that wants to just take the blue pill and return to my safe, unchallenged life. I look around me and I see other people on the cliff with me... looking down anxiously, testing the wind with their finger- even stretching as if to get a running start in hopes they have enough momentum behind them to keep them afloat if but a few seconds. I see their souls excitingly pulsating and flashing in their Heart- as if trying to rev their internal engine to get them to jump....to break the pattern and behavior that sends them to this cliff every time. I also see those who look to be struggling to find the strength. I hear them thinking, "there has to be a better way, I can change the situation that led me here,"  and every time they walk away to give it another try, and every time they end up running right back to the cliff.

For me, I think I am scared of something new. Learning, and growing and developing, which will all happen once I start moving towards the future.  I find comfort in believing some things will never change- players will be players, assholes will never care, and I have no control over my life. Unfortunately with that, I KNOW it isn't true. Charles, one of my "awakening coaches" told me that I have the power inside me to make ANYTHING possible. He used Mathew 17:20 where Jesus talks about having faith like a mustard seed to describe the power within me. He said it is not good enough to believe- when you believe, all you are is convinced until the next biggest thing comes along and you believe that instead.You believe you have power, when in all reality, all you have is belief- not power. You can be easily swayed when you believe something. This is where doubt comes in, and doubt is the ego trying to keep you as human and undivine as possible. When you KNOW something, you POSSESS it. And there in lies your power.

What will it take to.... not "send me over the edge",  but for me to willingly jump, embrace my future and develop wings on my way down? Why do I seem to attract the same people, the same situations- the same everything? I look in the sky and see people who were once on the edge of the cliff, gracefully gliding in the air. The same people who were once thinking, "I wonder what it would be like to finally meet a 'good man' who has the same morals, beliefs and values as me", right before they jumped. Or "it would be nice to have a CAREER where I not only have financial security but I am happy with what I'm doing and making a difference and improving lives", and then they flew. Or "it would be nice to have a friend to kick it with on those lonely nights...that isn't afraid to tell me they have other plans or just doesn't wanna do anything instead of standing me up", and then they sprouted wings and took flight.

What awaits me at the bottom of the cliff, I dont know. Im finding my way back to happiness again, though I dont really know what I'm gonna do when I get there. So I take a deep breath and hold on tight, spread my arms as the wings begin to form, spin around one more time and elegantly fall back into the depths of grace...

I used to have a handle on Life, but it broke....

My life has been in a whirl wind spiral as of lately...so many mixed feelings and emotions swirling around me and I cant get a grasp on some of them. You never expect life to throw you so far off plan that you turn around and everything that you wanted is gone. Since  there's nothing left to lose,  you make the decision to take the risk on something you didn't ever know was there. You can't help but go for it and stop worrying about what everyone thinks of you.... but it doesn't matter- forget them and stay true to yourself. Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets- so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance - take it. If it changes your life - let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy; they just promised it would be worth it :-)

Becoming ME

The road to I Am was not paved lightly, nor was it well lit. The road to me lead to many break downs and breakups; floating on cloud nine and near drowning in reality. Where my story begins is actually at the end....of everything I thought I knew about life, spirituality and all that can be possible.

I was raised in a spiritually free household. What that means is,  we were allowed to explore our spirituality freely. My mom's side of the family was Jewish and Episcopalian. My dad's side was Lutheran and A.M.E. I was baptized and did my confirmation through the Lutheran church, but when I got to high school I began to explore other spiritual practices. Even at the tender age of 12, something was telling me there was more to God than what was being presented. I asked the questions no one dared to ask in Sunday school like, how can there be no such thing as reincarnation when I am having dreams of being a monk in Papa New Guinea? Or why were some things in the Bible taken literally and others not? So in high school, after not being satisfied by the responses I dove in to other spiritualities- hoping to uncover the true nature of God. Little did I know, in uncovering the true nature of God, 10 years later I would be uncovering the true nature of myself.

In this blog, I invite you on my journey to discovering my divinity, renewing my faith, and bringing light, love and completeness to a journey that started over 2,000 years ago.