Sunday, February 6, 2011

Anything is Possible: How a Mustard Seed Can Bring You to Enlightenment Pt. 1 of 3




In my last blog, I touched on the difference between believing something and knowing something. The word enlightenment seems to be used too carelessly, and tossed around too frequently these days. I was inspired to write this blog to explain what the definition of enlightenment means to me; as well as give guidance to people on this path. For the record, I am not enlightened but I am on the path to enlightenment myself lol. 


And before I get started, I must post my advisory label:





I encourage people to keep this in the back of their minds as they navigate the road to enlightenment. You will encounter many false prophets, true prophets, and people with good intentions- but are misguided, mislead or misinterpreting. One of the biggest challenges on the road to enlightenment is not inputting your personal beliefs and stating them as facts. To truly be enlightened, one must have no judgments, ignorance, or prejudice. This is near impossible as our ego tries to take over; and the closer we get to enlightenment, the more our knowing becomes a personal belief. 

To be enlightened is to spiritually know and understand free of ignorance, false beliefs or prejudice. People who are enlightened can honor each person as they walk their own path, and not infringe their personal beliefs on to them, but accept what ever form that carries truth for them. To be enlightened is when you can be simultaneously outside yourself, while still connected to your inner Spirit- the observer and the observed are One, connected to every living organism. 

My advisor gave me a great story on the difference between being enlightened and being at a higher state of consciousness, but still awakening. It actually infuses the story of the blind men touching an elephant, and her own quirky twist lol. 
Pretend you are at the foot of a mountain and your friend calls and tells you that there is a flying elephant on the other side of the mountain where she is. From where you are, there is simply no way that you can know whether or not your friend is actually looking at a flying elephant. They might describe it in great detail or even say they are trying to tame it so they can fly over to you, so you can see it for yourself; but the best you can ever do is to believe that they are looking at a flying elephant, you will never know.
All of a sudden a flying elephant comes through the clouds and lands right beside you. Now YOU are looking at a flying elephant! You still don’t know if your friend was actually looking at a flying elephant; but at least now you can start asking specific questions and looking for specific responses from her. You might be able to ascertain that she is indeed looking at a flying elephant very similar to yours, or else you might conclude that her flying elephant is very different from yours; while accepting that she is indeed looking at a flying elephant. Whatever the case, you still won’t really know whether or not she is looking at a flying elephant.

The purpose of this story was to say that you can’t ever know for sure whether someone else is enlightened. Even more importantly, it does not matter if they are or if they are or not. What does matter is that YOU will know whether or not you are looking at a flying elephant aka whether or not you are enlightened.  Rumi, a 13th Century Persian poet and teacher of Sufism, said “The sensual eye is just like the palm of the hand. The palm has not the means of covering the whole of the beast.” There is MUCH to learn before one can say they are enlightened, and as long as they are still learning, they are BECOMING enlightened. This is not a bad thing! They can be at a higher level of consciousness, or farther along on the path to awakening, but they haven't reached it yet. Actually, Buddhist believe that if you say you are enlightened, you are not, because being enlightened means that you know you will never reach enlightenment. Kind of like how in Shamanism they say if you call yourself a Shaman, you are not a Shaman.

This brings me to revisit my "advisory label". It is more than just telling you to not believe everything you hear, it is TELLING you that enlightenment has to agree with your own reasoning aka YOUR HIGHER SELF. People who are enlightened don't need to seek knowledge from books, websites- even other people. That knowledge is CHANNELED to them via their Higher Self. Ask an enlightened person an "unanswered" question. If they give you a response and don't say their source was from their Higher Self,  then they are not enlightened. This is why enlightenment is so hard to obtain, because not everyone can reach this level. But it should not matter whether you are enlightened or not; that is a useless title for a long destination. The only thing that matters is that you awaken and continue to awaken. That you learn and continue to seek knowledge. 

There are many paths that lead to enlightenment. Some people may be able to read something and apply what they know. Some people may have to take multiple spiritual approaches and practices to develop the understanding. The most important thing that matters and that is imperative to know, is that no one can TEACH you enlightenment- it has to be EXPERIENCED and LIVED for yourself. All of my teachers and coaches and advisors can only get me so far. They can give me the understanding on how things work, they can teach me the tools needed to experience things- they can even lead me in the direction all short of holding my hand and doing it for me. But I will never be enlightened if I can't APPLY everything that has been given. Applying it has its benefits, because once you reach enlightenment, when you have unity between your soul and the Divinity within, then the Source or Great Creator Spirit may even work through you as a benefit to others.  

Enlightenment can be obtained, and it all starts with faith and knowing. In my next blog, I will discuss the different levels of enlightenment, as well as the importance of faith. I will then wrap it up in a 3rd blog with seeing the big picture and how to live your own life, true to yourself.







The other side of the Rainbow...



This blog entry came to me in the middle of the night, as most of my good writing does lol. My brain is like an unborn baby- it does not care if it is 3am and it should be sleeping now, it is on it's own schedule lol. I actually thought about it after sending a reply to Natalie who commented on one of my blogs. I wished her a wonderful journey in finding her own personal pot of gold at the end of the rainbow; it was after reading her wonderfully written blog on Magenta. Yep, in the middle of the night, I was thinking for rainbows with magenta rays lol.

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How many times have we found ourselves on the edge of a cliff?  And I dont mean a literal one, but a metaphorical one....in our mind.  Where we are faced with the deciscion to either jump and pray we develop our wings on the way down, or we can go back to where we came from... the same place that drove us to the cliff in the first place. I often find myself at this cliff. Different things bring people to this cliff. It can be a person who you just cant let go of, even though you know they are no good for you, it can be a job thats leading you nowhere but you love the comfort and security of having a schedule; knowing your life is planned out from 9am-5pm. It can even be a bad habit.  An OLD bad habit of mine would bring me comfort when I did it- to actually see my pain, even though it was destructive to my health. And breaking that bad habit would mean having to find other ways to cope with my depression...which seems so insignificant compared to the cliff I am on the edge of now- coming to terms with my own Divinity.

What a smack of reality the awakening process is! The road to enlightenment seems to find pleasure in denying its travelers some water to swallow this HUGE pill with. I know life is a conscious choice. We choose our reality. One of my teachers for my path to enlightenment wrote a blog on the spiritual meanings of the movie "The Matrix". I am totally at the point where Neo is being presented with the red and blue pill to choose.

I want to jump...embrace my Divinity, all of my past lives, and my inevitable powerful future existence. But there is still a part of me that wants to just take the blue pill and return to my safe, unchallenged life. I look around me and I see other people on the cliff with me... looking down anxiously, testing the wind with their finger- even stretching as if to get a running start in hopes they have enough momentum behind them to keep them afloat if but a few seconds. I see their souls excitingly pulsating and flashing in their Heart- as if trying to rev their internal engine to get them to jump....to break the pattern and behavior that sends them to this cliff every time. I also see those who look to be struggling to find the strength. I hear them thinking, "there has to be a better way, I can change the situation that led me here,"  and every time they walk away to give it another try, and every time they end up running right back to the cliff.

For me, I think I am scared of something new. Learning, and growing and developing, which will all happen once I start moving towards the future.  I find comfort in believing some things will never change- players will be players, assholes will never care, and I have no control over my life. Unfortunately with that, I KNOW it isn't true. Charles, one of my "awakening coaches" told me that I have the power inside me to make ANYTHING possible. He used Mathew 17:20 where Jesus talks about having faith like a mustard seed to describe the power within me. He said it is not good enough to believe- when you believe, all you are is convinced until the next biggest thing comes along and you believe that instead.You believe you have power, when in all reality, all you have is belief- not power. You can be easily swayed when you believe something. This is where doubt comes in, and doubt is the ego trying to keep you as human and undivine as possible. When you KNOW something, you POSSESS it. And there in lies your power.

What will it take to.... not "send me over the edge",  but for me to willingly jump, embrace my future and develop wings on my way down? Why do I seem to attract the same people, the same situations- the same everything? I look in the sky and see people who were once on the edge of the cliff, gracefully gliding in the air. The same people who were once thinking, "I wonder what it would be like to finally meet a 'good man' who has the same morals, beliefs and values as me", right before they jumped. Or "it would be nice to have a CAREER where I not only have financial security but I am happy with what I'm doing and making a difference and improving lives", and then they flew. Or "it would be nice to have a friend to kick it with on those lonely nights...that isn't afraid to tell me they have other plans or just doesn't wanna do anything instead of standing me up", and then they sprouted wings and took flight.

What awaits me at the bottom of the cliff, I dont know. Im finding my way back to happiness again, though I dont really know what I'm gonna do when I get there. So I take a deep breath and hold on tight, spread my arms as the wings begin to form, spin around one more time and elegantly fall back into the depths of grace...

Friday, February 4, 2011

I used to have a handle on Life, but it broke....



My life has been in a whirl wind spiral as of lately...so many mixed feelings and emotions swirling around me and I cant get a grasp on some of them. You never expect life to throw you so far off plan that you turn around and everything that you wanted is gone. Since  there's nothing left to lose,  you make the decision to take the risk on something you didn't ever know was there. You can't help but go for it and stop worrying about what everyone thinks of you.... but it doesn't matter- forget them and stay true to yourself. Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets- so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance - take it. If it changes your life - let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy; they just promised it would be worth it :-)